Joran van der Sloot Says He Feels 'Guilty'

(Sept. 7) -- Murder suspect Joran van der Sloot told Dutch television in an interview broadcast today that he feels "guilty" about "everything that happened" since the disappearance of Natalee Holloway in 2005.

During the interview, which aired on NBC's "Today" show today, van der Sloot, sporting a beard and mustache, said he decided to speak out because people view him as monster. He also said he feels bad for the shame he has brought on his family and the lies he's admittedly told.

"For everything that I have been through since 2005, all the things said in the media, I feel guilty for," van der Sloot said.

The interview was one of the few the Dutch native has granted since being locked up on charges of murdering a 21-year-old Peruvian woman.

Van der Sloot, a longtime suspect in the disappearance of Holloway, is accused of the May 30 slaying of Stephany Flores. The Peruvian business student was found dead in van der Sloot's hotel room in Lima on June 2. Van der Sloot has been charged with first-degree murder and robbery in the case.

Van der Sloot avoided directly answering questions about his alleged involvement in Flores' murder, saying it was not in his best interests to talk about it. However, he did admit to having problems controlling his actions.

"I've always been very ... impulsive," van der Sloot said. "Always ... take an action right away, make a decision immediately and not think about what the consequences are."

On Monday, the Dutch newspaper De Telegraaf published an interview with van der Sloot, in which he acknowledged extorting money from Holloway's parents in exchange for details on the location of her body, The Associated Press reported.

Van der Sloot touched on the alleged plot again in the latest interview.

"[For] five years ... people have just been blaming me for something and yeah, I have a lot of anger built up because of that," van der Sloot explained. "At one point, I just thought that OK, you keep insisting that you want to give me this money. I've already told a lot of different stories. I'll do it again."

He also commented on the multiple lies he has told over the years, saying he was sick of being harassed for information. "You start to think, 'OK, well, f--- you. If you want something, then I'll tell you whatever you want to hear.'"

Van der Sloot says he feels bad about the situation but claims everything will come out when the time is right. "I'm going to tell the whole truth, absolutely," he said.

John Q. Kelly, the attorney for Holloway's mother, told the "Today" show that he's not buying van der Sloot's explanations and believes he's a pathological liar.

"He [claims he's] always a victim ... he's always misunderstood and someday he's absolutely going to tell the truth," Kelly said. "I've heard those words from him so many times."

In regard to the extortion plot, Kelly says he is not surprised van der Sloot is admitting his involvement.

"He doesn't have much of a choice," Kelly said. "I've got [all the evidence] of the whole scenario as it played out, so he doesn't have to admit to anything. It's all memorialized."

Kelly says van der Sloot is not sincere in his apologies and will only tell the truth out of fear or self-preservation.

"He wants to be in the spotlight," Kelly said. "For months, he's been sitting down in Peru, rotting in prison. No one paid attention to him and he just wants to be out there again. He just can't help himself."

On Monday, a Peruvian court voted 2-1 to reject a motion filed by van der Sloot that he is being held unlawfully. According to CNN, the court requires a unanimous vote to secure the ruling. A second hearing on the motion will be held next week.

If convicted of Flores' murder, van der Sloot could face 15 to 35 years in prison.